Nightingale & Sparrow

Author: meganrusso

  • Confessions of a Poetry Editor on a Bad Work Day

    Confessions of a Poetry Editor on a Bad Work Day

    Justin Karcher

    I’m smoking in the cold on my lunch break and have, like, 10 minutes left before I have to go back. That means I have enough time to smoke another cigarette and to read over the two poems in my inbox. I’m the editor of Ghost City Review and like most, if not all, editors in the poetry community, it is just one of the many jobs I have. Because of this, I struggle with separating poem and reality. I’m not complaining. It’s a beautiful side effect, but sometimes it makes me a little lost.

    Anyways, I’m late getting back to my real job, the one that gives me health insurance, because those two poems in my inbox pulled my beard off my face with the force of their spunk and sprinkled each little hair across the dull courtyard. I tried gathering the hairs together, but a winter wind came off the river and blew them away from me forever.

    I can’t explain to my boss that I’m late coming back from lunch because of poetry. They would just look at me with uninterested eyes and take me into a secret room in the dark corner of the office where a corporate-sponsored therapist would drop from the ceiling like a dusty ghost and ask questions about my mental state, like, “Is there something affecting your ability to do this job effectively?”

    So, I won’t bring up poetry, because that totally affects my ability to do, well, anything. I’ll just take the heat. Maybe it will burn away the bags under my eyes.

    I don’t get much sleep and when I actually do, it’s because I’ve passed out on the couch with an open laptop on my chest, Gmail slowly undressing like a digital burlesque show, casually tossing Word docs off the blurry stage like pieces of clothing. It doesn’t matter…morning or moonlight, energized or sleep-deprived, I like scooping up every poem I come across, cradling it in my arms and doing my best to find it a home. Someplace where it can live out its days comfortably and at peace. Like a retirement home, I guess, but for poems and not depressing. Maybe retirement home is a bad analogy. Maybe I’m being overdramatic. Maybe I keep chapbooks in the fridge. Maybe I don’t know what I’m talking about.

    Obviously, poetry editors aren’t in it for money or notoriety. We sincerely care about language and the individual voice. The world does everything in its power to dissipate the sound clouds in our chests and poetry protects our skies. But to put it simply, poems turn us on. They are knives twisting into tyrants. They are an endless box of tissues next to a lake of eyes. They are shovels we use to dig up the past and then we dig another hole next to it and tunnel into the future with the ferocity of a million blooms, a million failed romances, a million manifestos handed down from our mothers. This energy must be encouraged and sometimes all a poet needs is to get there.

    In many ways, poetry editors are chauffeurs taking poets to a secret club in the middle of the night and as they open the limousine door, they declare, “Here it is! Have the time of your life.”

    Maybe that’s taking it a little too far, but this means everything to me. I know that other editors feel the same way. To be honest, I’m not sure why I decided to write this. Maybe to emphasize how we need each other. Maybe to emphasize how important it is to merge our ideas together to create something immense and beautiful, something bigger than ourselves… but at the same time, protecting and showcasing the individual voice. Maybe I’m being cliché, O captain my captain. Maybe this is an overstuffed commentary on my sleepless ways. Maybe no one’s texting me back. Or maybe I’m just trying to pass the time at work until my next break when I can read the poems in my inbox and feel alive again, when I can feel that heat.

    Justin Karcher

  • Next to an orchard in central Washington

    Next to an orchard in central Washington

    LE Francis

    The sign says ‘no jesus no hope’ —
    plastic letters in June sun wilting,
    stretching as if in prayer, a sad
    salutation to the earth amened by
    a woman watering dirt near her trailer.

    In grief, the ground refuses to drink &
    a stream divides the bank to join
    the river in murmuring confirmation,
    all hope abandoned because no man
    ever rose the same as the sun;

    all hope dispelled by graveyard dirt
    & roots, the hydra’s tongues & teeth
    sunk deep into a moaning vowel,
    lacing the stays of generations with
    telephone line, hands cupped

    & colored by dishwater & blood;
    hope unrecoverable in the rough
    valleys of age cut by fields & parlors
    & spring dances, at once young & old
    & same as the last; nothing more

    pointless than the agile fingers of
    daughters who sewed flowers
    into their petticoats to be found
    by lovers needlessly sowing
    tomorrow’s fields; no hope

    in blooming & rotting, in becoming
    like every other green & vibrant thing;
    despair like the water that cuts the hill &
    divides the ground that cannot hold it;
    unheard like prayers spelled out in plastic,

    meaningless as any other words
    if we were only intended to grow
    these bones before giving them up.

    LE Francis

  • Persephone

    Persephone

    Mollie Williamson

    ouls swim by as I make my way to my husband. I can see why many people would fear or at least dread coming to the underworld. In its simplest form, it is nothing but a cavern with various tunnels that bring the dead to their rightful resting place. Stalagmites burst their spiked heads up from the cave floor, offering a precarious path for the river of souls as the rocks spurt out of the water causing chaos. But my boatman knows the way, so I lean against the velvet cushioned seat and watch the dead go by.

    When the boat gently taps against a flat stone landing, I wait for it to steady before rising. The boatman bows as I disembark. My sandaled feet crush against the grey granite. Wisps of fog clear a path as I glide forward. Despite the perpetual chill of the underworld, I feel his heat long before I see him. His voice floats on the cool air currents and nestles in folds of my curly brown hair before spiraling into my ears. He needs me today. He always does.

    “—so honored you could make it ladies,” he says.

    He hides in one of the offshoots of the river, though this one is dry of any water. It is the plateau upon which our thrones reside. We rule from this room. I enter the large domed opening and get the strangest sensation that I am entering a mouth and getting swallowed whole. Heat ripples in the waves towards me both from the simmering torches about the room as well as from his actual presence. The air becomes stuffy and just as hard to breathe in as the cold. His back is towards me, so I slide up behind him and rub my hand over his back. My hand burns through his cotton robe. He is like touching the sun. I feel the slightest tremble go down his spine. My cool touch singeing his fire.

    “Finally,” Hades says, turning to me.

    He takes my hands, bringing them to his lips. His kiss sends scorch marks across my skin. The heat leaves red tattoo welts on my hands, but its warmth is quite tantalizing. Indeed, his power only fuels my own. His amber eyes look like they have been set ablaze. Molten lava appears to brew in the depths of his irises. They are just as enchanting as the day we met in the meadow. My mother will never admit how handsome he really is. She would then have to acknowledge that I willingly left her for I was not taken. She spread that lie far and wide because she didn’t want me to become queen of the underworld. My mother could never fathom her precious, pure daughter wanting power. According to her, it is not in the nature of women to be ambitious. And yet here I am. Queen, indeed.

    “Forgive my tardiness, ladies,” I say to the three women standing before us.

    What a sight they make. One is young and beautiful as a freshly blooming sunflower with long golden hair to match her bubbliness. The second one is middle-aged and has black hair. She is cautious, though her expression is neutral. The woman still shines with beauty despite her older age. And the last, an old hag, too wizen and temperamental for anyone’s good. Her white-grey hair comes out like curled snakes from her scaly head. The Fates are a triangle of the passage of time that mirrors the lives they create, grow, and eventually kill. Though I hate to admit it, they control everything. Even the underworld. Even my power.

    “We were just discussing your fates,” the old crone whizzes.

    “I would expect nothing less,” I reply.

    The youngest giggles, the middle-aged woman smirk, but the old woman doesn’t even crack a smile. Tough crowd. I take my seat next to Hades. Our thrones are an equal match. Both made out of cold black marble with large white veins cutting through it. The path of the white marble veins is uncannily similar to the river of souls just beyond these stone walls. They are pulled along by the might of the river while still managing to make their presence known in the watery depth.

    “And what, pray tell, is in our future?” I ask.

    The Fates glance at each other. Their quiet deliberation sets my nerves alight. Nervous energy tingles through my body. I am a spark that only needs an ounce more of fuel to make me the fiery queen I am known to be. I tap my fingers tirelessly on the arms of my throne to smother my blistering temper. Hades covers my left hand with his right to steady me. Though it feels as if my hand is resting under a smoldering log, its burn soothes my tension. It is almost as if I absorb Hades’ heat. The warmth of it burns my skin, yet journeys beneath its layers and feeds my blood with passion, with life. Eventually, the middle-aged one steps forward.

    “You will return to the world above, Persephone,” she says.

    “Impossible,” I retort.

    “It is unwise to question the Fates,” the old woman chides.

    I huff. My temper and annoyance flare like my nostrils. It sends heated flames licking up the back of my spine until it curls around my neck and crawls up my cheeks. To most, my rosy face would make them believe I am embarrassed. But I am anything but that. I am a crackling ember.

    “What could possibly make me leave here?” I snap. “I am queen. No one can possibly dethrone me.”
    “It has nothing to do with dethroning you,” the youngest says. Her light, honest voice tries to calm my temper. “But the world needs you.”

    “Why?”

    “Your absence has greatly upset your mother. She has taken away the fruitfulness of the land. But you can fix it. You are life, Persephone,” the youngest continues. “Even you cannot thrive with the dead eternally.”

    “I will not—”

    But the old woman cuts in before my anger can best her. “You will do as you are told, child,” she says. Her words are cool enough to counter my rage. They send pinpricks of ice stabbing into my chest. We are both stubborn but, in the end, only one of us will get our way and unfortunately, I know who it will be.

    “But,” the middle-aged advances again, “you will return to the underworld after your long stay above.”

    “Long stay? I wouldn’t doddle more than a day up there.”

    “You will return to the world or else we will deny you our offering,” the old crone says before breaking out into a hacking fit. Spit flies into the air as do clumps of her white-grey hair.

    I wrinkle my nose. Taking a deep breath, I glance at Hades. His hand has clamped down so hard on mine that it’s like I’m locked in a burning iron chain. I can barely flex my fingers. The circulation is slowly cutting off. I feel numbness crawl into each finger. He is worried. Like I said, he needs me. He cannot live without me.

    “And how can you ensure my wife will return?” He asks.

    “Fret not,” the middle-aged one says. “All she has to do is simply eat a pomegranate.”

    Bile immediately surges in my stomach. The acidity singes my throat. It is all I can do to stop myself from vomiting. That is the one fruit I simply detest above all others. “You couldn’t force that damn thing down my throat,” I hiss.

    “You will eat it should you wish to return,” the hag says. A gaunt smile spreads across her face. It is cruel and reveals piles of chipped and yellow teeth. Not a reassuring gesture. “I’m sure your throne will miss you,” she adds.

    The jab hangs in the air around all of us. It has a life all its own. It pulsates with frenzied energy in the cavern. It fuels the fire that erupts in my stomach replacing the vileness of vomit. A viper wishes to be released from my core, but I cage it and contain my poisonous tongue. It is a test, pure and simple. Do I love my power more than people? That is the question I am forced to answer. Without a word, I extend my hand towards the Fates never once breaking eye contact with the crone. The youngest approaches dancing on tiptoe and places the dreaded fruit in my free hand. Hades squeezes my caged hand while his molten lava eyes freeze over.

    “I will return,” I promise him.

    “Yes,” he nods, “because you are a queen in your own right.”

    He brings my hand to his lips once more. The scorching warmth flames my blood and body into action. I take a large bite from the fruit so no one can dispute it. I chew it deliberately slow so the old woman can see me swallow. Now my fate is sealed.

    Mollie Williamson

  • Into the Fire

    Into the Fire

    Rickey Rivers Jr.

    Maybe you should walk with me?
    Into the fire, my love we’ll burn but not implode.

    We will become immortal in the flame.
    We will burn bright and roar, lighting the towns around us.

    Our heat will be felt by the sun and the smoke will reveal our shadows.

    You should walk with me there into the greatness of an ember.
    Cinders in reflection carry the burning bliss.

    Rickey Rivers Jr.

  • Brimstone

    Brimstone

    Frances Boyle

    He smoulders over perfidy and putrefaction. My brother,
    back from saving the world. He witnessed children
    made to work like slaves in emerald mines in Brazil,
    forests stripped and water polluted, while hired thugs
    ‘keep peace’ for multinationals. Poison, he tells me,
    gets papered over with silky PR, policies and promises.
    Soldier of no fortune, he calls himself, bringing his fervent
    crusader gaze to my small orbit of life and compromise.

    We were raised country, with church on Sundays
    but I haven’t been for years. The old stories seemed
    suspect when it came to women: Eve’s bad rap;
    and how about Lot’s wife? Turned to salt, but all she did
    was look back to check on friends, a home she cherished,
    the hearth she had kindled to a household. All left instead
    when angels took her by the hand, to a rain of burning sulphur.

    So, it’s his talk of hellfire and brimstone that shocks me
    more than his bearded pallor, the weary approximation
    of the easy ways we used to have. The new processing
    plant down the road he calls a boil on the county’s ass,
    a festering furuncle. Hyperbole to make me smile,
    but his eyes are animate with righteous blaze.

    He wants to cut losses, says the township’s in ruination,
    like the planet. Little worth in our old home, just four walls,
    gnarled fruit trees and fields gone fallow in nursing home years.
    I see green on the farm pond brilliant as gemstones, while he
    sniffs the fetid stench of scum, another scourge on the land.

    I’m the one who’s taking the house in hand. I sweep
    and scrub, wash walls and light fixtures, haul junk
    to the dump by the truckload. I walk the orchard, ponder
    how I might prune the topiary tangle of his intensity,
    snip it back to the shape of the brother I knew. This farm
    is our legacy. I can’t hover at an auction, watch alone
    as our parents’ treasures sell. I guess I’m becoming
    sentimental; I need us both to take just one look back.

    Frances Boyle

  • 11.52PM, AND PINING

    11.52PM, AND PINING

    Jerry Chiemeke

    (for “Serah”)

    Your eyelids make for shelter
    and the expulsion of sound
    from your vocal chords
    remind me of the evening
    I swore that your breathing
    was the one alarm I looked
    forward to waking up to.
    I can’t tell what keeps you warm
    on evenings where mattresses
    seem four times larger
    but the only thing I want
    wrapped around you
    tighter than your beads
    is my arms.
    I want to trade
    your nose ring
    for the front tip of my lips
    so I can feel the heat
    of your breath on my chin
    and know where to flow from
    when I decide to find out
    what flavours of lip gloss
    you have been trying out lately.

    I send my mind on voyages
    as I yearn to stumble on ways
    to get around the diameters of you,
    there are no memories
    out here to attempt
    confusing themselves with dreams
    but I reach out for any
    faint images that would
    grace me with an idea
    of what it would feel like
    to get lost in you while
    searching for gold in damp places.

    Slow breathing, grabbing,
    incoherent tones that speak of discovery,
    Torsos learning the art of symmetry,
    Colliding pulse rates, indicative
    of hearts that won’t mind being in sync
    toes finding space to
    stretch across each other
    Oxygen traded for units of carbon
    eyes engaged in rendezvous
    with just enough room
    for sweaty noses to fall in warm embrace.

    These days I find it hard
    to tell what is good for me
    or what is just thorns guised as pineapples
    but I can say for sure
    that I know where my head
    craves to be
    under bulbless rooms by 11.52pm,
    and when the world stops
    leaving my mouth agape
    as my hair brushes the clouds
    I am fully aware of
    the two brown rocks
    that I want to be seen clutching
    solemnly in my final hours.

    Jerry Chiemeke

  • First Burn

    First Burn

    Jeff Burt

    How good to burn the mounds of maple leaves
    and twigs, to bend the sky with smoke,

    to spin an earthly contrail that neighbors
    and dogs can trace to the rake’s teeth,

    to enjoy the leafy filters that strained the light
    to make oxygen and sugar, balance my needs with theirs,

    warm the front of my jeans and leave the backside cool
    as I stand face into the billowing smoke

    thanking the maples for my breath, my warmth,
    the little hard candy shifted by my tongue.

    Jeff Burt