Jenny lives in Liverpool UK and has been writing poetry since her teens but only seriously since retiring. She is an ex social worker/manager and NHS Director. She has poems in The Morning Star, Writing at the Beach Hut, and in a forthcoming anthology of poetry celebrating the bicentennial anniversary of George Eliot, (Yaffle Press).
Love Poems That Are Not About Suffering Are Difficult
Lauren Boisvert
I told you I was writing love poems
and you said oh no
like you knew they’d be about you; I could’ve been writing about the impeccable love between cat and person
but instead, yes, I wrote about you
am currently writing about talking about writing about you.
There’s some psychology about that somewhere I’m sure:
Freud or Rilke or the great philosopher Siken. Writing about writing about someone you love is a shallow act
like an old prospector panning for gold
praying for that little nugget of pure inspiration an angel’s tear unearthed from water
this poem is neither tear nor nugget
but something unpolished and raw
an unrefined wisdom on a shelf at the Goodwill
dusted off and taken home
with someone who collects neither nuggets nor tears but cyclical renderings of words and fat
a richness like a snake eating its own tail
and enjoying it.
I hold your cheek to mine
and I feel like I’m looking at the base of a globe the light-up one I had as a child
suffused blue light and multicolored countries
I traced them all in marker
like I trace my fingernails along your back now staring into that light
white Antarctica blazing in it’s frigid shell.
Lying on our stomachs we suck strawberries,
dabbing them in sugar, grasping them,
as plump lips bite.
Each granule of sweet,
a promise.
Forever lazy sunshine, park picknicks,
fresh mown grass.
Sticky fingers caress cheeks,
slide along collar bones.
Strawberries promise love
even with age,
with fever.
We vow forever,
both tart and sweet.
Everyone always told me what love would look like.
How love would sashay in through a hollow in the trees.
Everyone made fairy sighs, declaiming how candy-yellow butterflies
would swarm or hover above my chair before swooping in.
How it might bid me hello like a warm pixie’s shudder.
How I’d be under a spell, floating in sparkly air, how I’ll just know
when love is there and they were right but why is it that no one
ever told me how to make love stay when it pointed the other way?
How not to stumble on the steps after the midnight hour.
No one told me that love could bite. Love needs to bare it all, ogre and claw.
I don’t mean to go on like this but love needs to uncover its flaws.
Let me have tea with the brewing witches beneath the flowers,
so that when love arrives again, whether love slays a giant or reverts to frog,
I will be queen of my tower, a master of hearts, vulnerable but armed.